After some requests from my viewers and readers, and also to connect with you in a deeper way, I’d like to tell you the story of how Eternalised came into being. And a little bit about myself.
I was born in the year 1995 in Copenhagen, Denmark, to Indian and Spanish parents. I spent a couple of years living there in my youth, I then traveled between India and Spain (where I currently reside as a citizen). As such, I haven’t really had the conventional educational upbringing, and remained almost entirely self-taught in my bohemian life, with little interaction with other people apart from my family. In exchange, however, I’ve had a rich cultural experience. Nevertheless, I’m only fluent in Spanish and English.
It wasn’t until I was at the age of 17 that I started to take my education seriously, after the abrupt death of my mother, who suffered from schizophrenia, although not diagnosed. I was devastated, and also anxious to make something out of my life. I traveled and finally settled down in Spain and applied to a 1-year adult course to later access high school (secondary school or Bachillerato) for another two years. I then applied to the University degree of Bachelor of Business Administration for four years, finishing in 2020, with an 8-month internship in a consulting firm, related to financial institutions.
At this time, around Dec 2019, COVID-19 started to be discovered. And due to personal issues, I had to take a flight back to India, but flights were restricted.
I had to make a choice: accept the permanent contract in the consulting firm and get a decent salary or decline it, as I had to make an urgent trip. I decided on the latter after much rumination. But, of course – no one expected this big of an outburst of the virus, and I was stuck doing nothing. I also did not want to find a job to later have to leave it. I needed to come up with something to occupy my time, so I decided to upload videos on YouTube of philosophy and psychology.
When I look back, it still amazes me how one single choice can affect your entire life. And I would never go back. When I came upon this quote from Kierkegaard, it struck a deep chord:
“Life can only be understood backwards, but it must be lived forwards.”
Søren Kierkegaard, Kierkegaard’s Journals
Fun fact, before my channel was called Goldblockcareer. A channel focused on personal finance and personal growth, with around 30 videos on it (with just audio and an image). However, I started growing weary of it, my interest going elsewhere.
I had been going through some difficult times and I slowly became interested in philosophy and psychology after listening to Jordan Peterson’s lectures on Nietzsche and Jung. I am forever grateful for him introducing me to these thinkers. Listening to the audio-book of Thus Spoke Zarathustra helped me greatly to come to grips with the death of my father.
So I re-branded my channel and uploaded my first video on May 24, 2020: Jordan Peterson VS Friedrich Nietzsche | Is God Dead? This was an incredibly exciting thing for me, and I recall waking up intent on editing and uploading this video.
Also, just for the nostalgia, I re-uploaded 24 audios of my old channel Goldblockcareer around 11 months ago.
At first it was a slow and difficult beginning, I never thought I’d become anything relevant (as cliché as that sounds!), but I’m humbled to have recently crossed the 100k subscriber mark, and it makes me very happy that people are finding value from the videos in these difficult times.
The channel eventually caught up and has been doing great ever since.
So I’d like to thank all of you, my subscribers, and especially my supporters at Patreon, Ko-fi, and YouTube members as well as those who buy my merch, every bit helps to the growth and continuation of the channel.
Thank you for reading.
Eternalised, In Pursuit of Meaning